Although I’m on a coffee detox, my last three posts have felt highly caffeinated.
I’m still embarrassed they’re published (passive voice), on display for anyone to read, but I’m also proud. I’ve spent over two years trying to get my blog started and here I am, finally doing it.
No editorial calendar, no outlines, just words, and feelings. Publishing unedited first drafts (such as this one) has felt incredibly liberating, and I can already see my writing voice emerging. I’ve been looking everywhere for it and yet here it is, in this pile of “garbage” words!
I can spot the moments where I’m trying too hard, where I’m not being clear, and most important, where I’m not being me.
I wonder why the act of making these posts public has brought me so much clarity, in such a short period?
(I really, really want to go back and rewrite that last line, but I feel like leaving it there, for now, will teach me a lot about my writing weaknesses. I’ll come back to this soon.)
I’ve rewritten hundreds of abandoned posts and yet I’ve never been able to see my writing’s strengths and weaknesses with so much clarity. I guess the closet light was never bright enough.
If you’ve been kind enough to follow, can you sense the change in energy from Day 1‘s post to today’s?
Day 1: Ranting, feeling lost, trying to introduce myself but you barely caught my name. I’m trying too hard to use a “new-blogger” voice.
Day 2: Sorting through the feelings, trying to sense into what I was trying to say on Day 1. Here I’m using a “tired-mom” voice; here to help clean the mess but in no mood for nonsense.
Day 3: Emotional come-down. The strain of this new routine is causing me to rethink things. This feels like my, “I surrender” voice.
Day 4: Blissful pause. “Even though the work is unfinished, I love and accept myself anyway.” Below the “I’m proud” voice, what I really hear is a strong, “grateful” voice.
Can you sense this too?
I never want you to feel like I’m ranting, or disciplining. I also want you to trust me, so I can use these first three posts as a model text for different feelings.
Meaning I can refer to the combination of words used in these pieces, to help me identify the feeling I’m conveying. As I tried to mention in my Day 1, how you feel means a lot to me.
Nooo.. My time is up 🙁
I’d love to dive into this now, but my kids need a walk, and I have a dinner party to prep for.
This was way more fun. I hope to chat again tomorrow.
Thank you 🙂
Follow me on Instagram @onemomswords for Day 5 of my #100DayChallenge to see how I turn my first blog posts into something a little less terrible.
This is a new blog: no branding yet, no pictures yet, no writing voice yet, no newsletter yet. Just words. Lots of garbage words.