I’m back. Less nervous, so here goes. Again, I only managed to find 18 minutes of excuse free writing, but that’s still better than zero minutes of excuse free writing. This post, like my first one, is unedited. Even though it’s not perfect, I wrote, and it got published.
To better understand why it’s “garbage” I have to sort through it first.
The words from yesterday’s post are in Italics
My comments are in regular font.
I’m Nancy. I’m also nervous.
I hate writing first lines, so I’ll come back to this topic later. But there’s something I like about this one, even though it has nothing to do with what I’m about to say. I’ll keep it for now.
I’ve given myself 18 minutes to get this first post written. After which, I have to jump in the car, pick up my oldest (or is it eldest?) at school, come home, make a snack, make dinner, and fill the rest of my day with excuses.
I’m a self-made writer. Meaning I’d like to call myself a writer but since I have no confidence in my writing abilities, I hesitate to make the, “Look at me! I’m a writer!” declaration.
Here’s the problem I have with paragraphs like these: they’re boring.
You can see I’m trying to introduce myself but the whole thing sounds a little flaky. Can you feel that? Picture me tossing my hair, busying myself as a make-believe camera captures my “oh so interesting life”. The internet is full of this already.
And the insecurity bit is just annoying. Nobody’s interested in reading a blog about someone else’s insecurities.
So all I’m trying to say is:
“I’m a busy mom with more excuses than time. But deep down, I’d love to learn how to write.”
That feels a bit better – lighter – doesn’t it?
I’d like to finally start blogging. I’d also like to finally finish the books I’ve started, but like many new writers: I’m scared, I’m nervous, and worst of all, I don’t know where to start.
I see a lot of amazing blogs out there that have great info, and fun writing prompts, but somehow after binging on these “How to Grow Your Platform/How to Write Your First Book/How to Become Something You’re not” for over two years, I’m still not doing it.
Why? Because I’m not “good enough” “yet”…
These paragraphs feel like a long-winded complaint. Can you feel that? I’ve used 91 words to tell you that:
1 – I don’t know where to start.
2 – I’ve tried it all, and nothing’s worked.
3 – I’m insecure.
Yes, you’re learning something about me, but it’s far from interesting. At this point, there’s a 99.9% chance I’ve lost you as a reader. Which as a writer, makes feel sad because deep down, I’m willing to be vulnerable in exchange for being truly seen. And you can’t see me if you’re not reading.
But that’s ok because this is not your typical writing blog. As you’ve noticed, I talk to myself when I write. (Hmmm I wonder if this is a post idea: Why talking to yourself while writing really works)
Did you see what happened here? I jumped from “complaining” to a new thought that seemed to appear out of nowhere. My guess is you didn’t notice because the first half of the piece wasn’t even worth reading.
But for you, kind soul, who did stick with me, did you sense something magical about the words:
“That’s ok” and “This is not not your typical”
We rarely get told, “It’s ok, I love you anyway” so for me, these two words carry a soothing energy.
“Not your typical” is one of those curiosity-inducing lines that cause a person to stop and think for a moment. Yes, this line may be overused, but you can’t deny the curiosity it stirs. Do you feel that?
So instead of complaining about my excuses, I could at least make you feel good about reading my garbage post, by saying something more positive:
“My life craves the unconventional, so I’ve turned away from traditional writing techniques.”
so this is not your typical writing blog”
Hmm.. Not quite there but good enough for now. I’ve gone over my 18 minutes and my second 18 minute window is quickly closing.
I won’t be sharing how to write, or what to write, I’ll be sharing how I feel, because to me this is all that really matters.
This is partly a lie. I was so desperately (and quickly) trying to position myself as an unconventional blogger that I went as far as lying to you. Not good.
I’m obviously going to share about various writing techniques, that’s why you’re here right? But the post was written so quickly that the thoughts, which seemed so clear in my head, got turned around on their way to the page.
How does your writing make you feel?
How does your writing make others feel?
Your feelings can teach you a lot about your writing, especially your bad writing.
It’s clear that my writing technique (and overall point to the piece, more on that tomorrow) centers on feelings. But the article doesn’t allow you to properly digest the idea of using feelings as a writing guide (vs grammar) because it wasn’t written with you in mind.
How do I know I wasn’t thinking of you, the reader? The piece feels one sided. Meaning I’m ranting on about “me” without considering what you’re taking in.
“I’m such a busy person that I never get time to write, so I’m really bad at it, but I’m going to teach you about writing, and oh, I use my feelings to write”
“Hi, let me introduce myself. I’m Nancy, and I’d like to talk to you about my writing journey. Are you interested in having this conversation with me? To help you make your decision, the following is a little more information about me.”
Can you feel the difference?
This is my terrible first post. My Grammarly score is 79%, and I’m not allowing myself to edit any of it.
Overall, the post was “garbage” because it was so full of my messy insecure feelings that it left no space for your thoughts. Now you could edit the article until it was grammatically perfect, but this still wouldn’t make it worth reading.
So my 363 pile of garbage words turned up these thoughts:
I’m Nancy. I’m also nervous.
I’m a busy mom with more excuses than time. But deep down, I’d love to learn how to write.
My life craves the unconventional, so I’ve turned away from traditional writing techniques.
I’m a self-made writer, and this is my unconventional writing blog.
Feelings are the most important, and they guide me in my writing.
While writing, I use: Grammarly to help with grammar rules and my intuition to write the rest.
Less clutter and a great place to start tomorrow.
Follow me on Instagram @onemomswords for Day 3 (click to read now) of my #100DayChallenge to see how I turn this post into something a little less terrible. This is a new blog: no branding yet, no pictures yet, no writing voice yet, no newsletter yet. Just words. Lots of garbage words.