Today I discovered the benefit of “Write-it-Out” Practice. Yesterday’s confusion and overwhelm energy is still lingering in my mind, so my writing decided I needed a lesson on thought spacing and clarity.
As usual: Unedited First Draft on top and the Writing Reflection to follow.
— UNEDITED FIRST DRAFT —
Yesterday’s post was hard on my confidence. I tried so desperately to make up for my missed day of writing, hoping that more ideas, more thoughts, or more words would replace my disappointment with the satisfaction of achieving something “bigger”. But my thoughts got so out of control that I lost my footing and got overwhelmed. My mind was to tangled in thoughts, that I could barely string together enough words to form Day 11’s “I failed and give up” post.
So what happened? What can I learn from this writing experiment gone wrong?
My goal for this 100 Day Writing Challenge was to go with the flow. I wanted to write every day, and press Publish every day because I was tired of writing alone. I knew my writing needed work, I knew I lacked a plan and an offering, but I also knew what I liked to read. So, if I wrote every day and kept building on the lines that I liked in my writing, I knew – somehow – I’d get one step closer to my writing dream.
Yesterday’s words didn’t come from this place of knowing, they came from a place of fearing. The disappointment scared me, and I worried the missed day would leave a stain on the rest of the challenge. So instead of calmly letting myself process the miss-step, giving myself time to find the right words to describe my fear, I skipped several steps and tried to write some elaborate “finished” piece on the first draft.
I tried to be smart by writing short, double meaning sentences and I completely skipped #rewritepractice. Instead of letting my thoughts simmer and slowly soften with grace, my rush burnt the whole batch of ideas, leaving me nothing to serve.
I learned that a good piece of writing starts with longer, gracefully written sentences; lines that make space for all of the meaning and clarity I’m trying to convey. There must also be space for the lesson the writing is trying to teach me. Impactful writing doesn’t start with the answer and work it’s way back. Inspiring writing begins with a question that evokes curiosity in the reader, because the author feels just as curious as she’s writing it. To evoke feelings means to write with feeling, not just write about feelings.
You can read through the original Day 11 disaster piece here (link coming soon). You’ll know I was feeling overwhelmed because, you too, will quickly start to feel overwhelmed.
— WRITING REFLECTION —
This piece was challenging to write because I felt I was using too many words. As I’ve mentioned before, I have a fear of overly wordy sentences because I fear they expose too many of my writing’s weaknesses.
But my disastrous Day 11 (link coming soon) could have been avoided had I used more words to give more clarity.
I can really learn from my writing with Write-it-Out Practice.
Follow me on Instagram @onemomswords to see what happens on Day 13 when I try to make sense of this mess.
This is a new blog: no purpose yet, no images yet, no clear sense yet, just words, lots of tangled words.