I’m three hours into Day 11’s post, and it’s still not done. I spent too much time playing with this thread of thought, and all I have now is a giant knot.
The post was about disappointment. First about myself for missing a day and second about writers who quit at the climax. I followed my thoughts, and they led me to some really cool places, but I got lost on the way, and now here I am, three hours in with nothing to share.
I realize the success of this challenge is thanks to my “Times Up” alarm. Since my focus is “show up” instead of “finish,” I can always move forward because there’s always something, even unfinished, to share. I felt disappointed I couldn’t “show up” yesterday, so today I tried to make up for it by “finishing” something bigger. But instead of moving forward, I stalled and nearly moved backward, getting so tangled in my thoughts that I almost ran out of time to post today. I almost missed a second day because I was writing my way out of a hole of disappointment. Note to self: there are no good words in a hole of disappointment.
Since my thoughts are in a knot, I can barely string together three coherent words in a row. So I’ll end with another item for the Word Ban list:
– Don’t try to finish, just show up. Just let the words hit the paper and be grateful you were there to receive them.
I might be unclear, but I’m still here.
Follow me on Instagram @onemomswords to see what happens on Day 12 after I’ve cleared my head and reflected on the disappointment of missing Day 11.
This is a new blog: no purpose yet, no images yet, no clear sense yet, just words, lots of tangled words.